I am a kind of person who finds it difficult to apologize and forgive. It’s not like I think I am right all the time, its just that it’s hard for me to accept my faults. I do apologize and forgive at times; I just find doing this very hard. A time where I really knew I had to apologize to someone to make things right again was when I got really mad to my little sister. She was only trying to help but I blew things out of proportion and got mad at her.
During this day, I had so much going on; from school work to family problems. Nothing was going right that day. I had an overload of homework and class work, my schedule wasn’t working well with my parents, and I just couldn’t handle it anymore. When I came home from a long day of school and badminton practice, I didn’t know how I would be able to get all my work done. My sister came in to my room and she was drawing and asking me questions like, “How do you spell family? How do you spell letter?” She kept on doing this while I was there stressing over my school work. After a couple of minutes I finally snapped and I started getting mad at her. I guess my stress finally got to me at that moment. I started lecturing/shouting at her that she should figure things out by herself like I am with my own work.
After my outbreak, she was in tears. She ran to my brothers and she told them everything that had happen. While she was doing that, I had a sudden realization that that was wrong for me to have done that. It ran across my brain that I should apologize or else she would grow up to be someone that doesn’t apologize. I didn’t want her to become that way. The only way to fix this was to say sorry. I looked at what she was working on while she was in the other room. She was making a short letter to her family with colorful drawings and letters. This made it harder for me to apologize since she had good intentions and she was only trying to be nice. I had no reason to get mad at her.
She was still crying when she came back to my room, her eyes became swollen from the tears. I knew I had to apologize and finally when the perfect time came up, I apologized for getting mad at her for no apparent reason. It felt like a weight was lifted up my shoulders and I didn’t feel so bad anymore. The important thing is that apologizing makes you feel better and it is needed to make relationships right again.
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